Day 218

50% odd attendance from Maestro last night! Missing 2 people who were somewhere else.

I can't believe we are grand seniors already. 时间去了哪里？

Then again, it's a bittersweet feeling. Just one year ago, we were the ones hanging out with the freshies, and taking care of them. Now our freshies don't need us anymore and they've their own freshies and OGmates to talk to. Us seniors are relegated to the back to talk amongst ourselves. Is this empty nest syndrome? 😂

Then again, it's been a full year since Magnus took the stage as best OG. I think part of me was hoping to relive the adrenaline, the camaraderie, the pure exhilaration of it all - that I forgot it's been a whole year of us having our own lives and own friends already. Heck, it's been so long since I even went for OG lunches because most of my Wednesday's the past sem have been rented out to project group meetings.

What a nostalgic, bittersweet feeling.

#hazelnutlearnstocook

I chopped onions until I cried yesterday.

And I accidentally bought expensive fusilli without checking the price first. Shame on me. 😳

Yesterday's chicken macaroni while watching Doctors (woah I subconsciously wrote DOTS) - which I'm officially bored of.

I feel like just telling my house mates that we should all just settle our own meals because chances are they won't like to eat what I cook (minimal oil salt seasonings etc). 😪 Already they're talking about bringing bakuteh/curry chicken/chicken rice paste and bottles of chili sauce over and I don't eat any of those.

Today's lunch: roasted bell peppers, stir fried chicken breast with parsley, and fusilli pasta.

I eat my pasta without any sauce. 🌚

The last time I stir fried chicken I used too much seasoning. This time it's slightly better! I shall aim to reduce my seasoning even more the next time.

Cooking is so tiring. I don't know how mothers do it. #dayrefatties

Got Elsa to send me photos from chalet night.

I don't know why I'm standing next to handsome Eugene because I automatically look uglier next to him. And also standing at the side of the photo means I'm automatically +10kg... 🌚 I was having a nice conversation with my freshies when I got called over to take this photo and part of me really wanted to continue talking to them. 😢

It's hard and weird for me because I'm not in any cliques in my OG. I'm close to a few individuals.

But these few individuals are in cliques of their own, which always, always makes me feel distant and a little alone. Because cliques will always be cliques, no matter how inclusive - you know you don't belong.

Which could be the reason why last year, I really had fun hanging out with the freshies during their camp, because for once I felt like I had people to talk to and tease during camp. And this year all the freshies have their own cliques and groups now, and I feel lonely all over again.😪

(There is always someone who ends up smiling in our serious M clan photo 🌚).

Don't get me wrong - I'm thankful for my OG and I'm thankful for the somewhat heartwarming friendships we have, despite our differences. I'm glad that 2 years on, I am able to talk to some of them; I'd once thought that I would never be able to be on friendly terms with them. I'd once hated NBS camp.

I am the kind who takes a long time to warm up to someone. 😳

But I do not regret going for camp, and I do not regret knowing all these people.

Maestro FTW! Ⓜ️-Clan legacy lives on through us and the new freshies!

It's going to be weird not having OG lunches on Wednesdays in Canada.

Went for a run because I haven't been able to run well since I fell sick 2 weeks ago.

I need to burn calories before I start eating in the States.

Unfortunately because I've been so lazy and sick for the past few weeks I couldn't bring myself to go past 3km. 😪

When I'm in Canada I won't be able to run in shorts and singlet with the hot sun bearing down on my skin... So I'm taking all the opportunities I can now!

Finally eating this grape gummy thing from Hwee thanks @huiyihwee it's yummy. 😂