Day 27

Omg, SHOULD I?

The problem is:
1) I only have one day of CNY visiting so I told myself only ONE outfit and I already bought the TTR pleated midi.
2) I'll be in school til LATE tomorrow, so it means I can't camp for this ): I've never failed at camping before, so I think I've a pretty high chance of getting it in case it's wildly popular BUT I can't camp tomorrow and I'll be very disappointed if I don't get it!
3) Mileage wise... When am I ever going to wear it after CNY...? 😞

4) It's quite body hugging, will it look good on me or will I look like a sausage stuffed into the skin 😩
5) Am I buying too many clothes in blue and green shades?

This is my general thought process when I buy new clothes 😂 I don't NEED this dress for sure and my closet is bursting but I do like it...

So the question is... Yes? Or No? And this colour? And will I wear it after CNY (where to)? HALP!

OH and ya I'm also waiting to see if Fayth will launch anything I want this weekend. I can't buy so many "CNY" outfits when there's only one day of visiting to do! 😫

 I carted out the TTR dress in the end. 😅 My heart said yes and my head said no, no prizes for guessing who won. 

Feeling really so tired after school today 😪 I have some exchange issues: maybe I can't clear my mods overseas, which defeats the purpose of exchange. And there's a mod that I want to SU, but I somehow got landed with the largest part in the project. And my other project: nobody responds. I did all the work, and I just asked them to look through but no response. I think some of them didn't even open the document.

Oh and that's #hazelslunch last week haha cooked by mum with leftover bread 😂

And I'm so sad that Cedele near my house has closed down! I only have Bakerzin/Duke now. I tried Bakerzin today and the bread really doesn't compare to Cedele 😞 today's lunch is honey baked ham and cheese because I was too lazy to think of anything better.

Anyway - school has been insanely draining and it's only Week 3. It's also breakup/get together season which just somehow makes me feel even emptier. Especially when friends who just got attached send me Twitter quotes that say:

 #relationshipgoals: not being single 

I KNOW it's not meant to be malicious, but it doesn't mean it doesn't sting a little. And EVERY WHERE I go in school, there are couples PDA-ing? WHY?

And then there are friends who have recently broken up, and when you talk to them just because they need a listening ear/feel lonely, somehow those emotions transfer to you. You feel bad that they had to go through that crap, and you're glad it's over for them but then they feel so sad afterward that you feel bad too.

And then there's CNY coming up which just spells a loss in productivity for me because I need to dress up, smile for relatives, visit. I've never liked CNY, by the way. 😅 It always feels too pretentious, too opulent, too much hustle and bustle for my liking. It's a holiday but it means more makeup lessons or lessons converted into e-learning which takes me additional time to complete. So it's not really a holiday after all. (Since when did I begin to dislike holidays?)

Ok today is just a long, whiney post which I generally hate writing about because I'm a staunch believer of pulling yourself out of whatever pity hole you dug yourself into. 💪🏻 No point sitting around wallowing in your sadness right? 

So I'll type that all out (just got home from school), and start again after my shower REFRESHED. Hopefully. Because I have work to complete for tomorrow's lesson. 😅